Gothic

I love goth. I fucking love it.
The darkness, the erotica, the magic.

Sometimes it really bothers me that I can't be as alternative as I would like.
Some days I don't think about it, but other days I just hate every little detail about me that COULD make me look normal.

Look at Adora BatBrat. She is one of my favorite crazy goth people. And she's Swedish too, like me. She's a full blown goth every day. At work, at home, at her kid's school.

I hate to admit that I'm jealous, but I am.

OK, I am continuously updating my look so that it is slowly progressing towards my goal, but as long as I have a "normal" job I will never be able to fully look the way I want. And I like having a "normal" job. I don't know what "alternative" job I would take...burlesque dancer??

So, I guess I'll keep updating myself and keeping my mind on other things on those occations when I have to hide how I really look. I'll do that for as long as I can stand it. And when the day comes that I can no longer stay hidden...well, we'll see what happens then.